Imaginary Reload

Imaginary Reload (イマジナリーリロード Imajinarī Rirōdo) is the second song featured on the album Mekakucity Reload.

Background
The song revolves around Marry reflecting upon past reloads and using the past as her power to try again. Throughout the song she expresses how she has become something that isn't herself anymore. The song does not have an official MV yet, but Jin stated this song is the one he wants to see the most out of all Kagerou Project songs.

Jin's Comment
I wonder when the first time I got looked down upon by someone was. I wonder when the first time I got beaten up by someone was. I wonder when it was that I acquired the habit of giving up on ‘today’ just like that with, ‘This is how the world is anyway’. I end up using and discarding the present moment that only happens once, close my eyes to this unreasonable world and, before I realize it, seek after a place to belong within a fantasy world. The protagonist of this song also realizes something amidst such ‘daily life’. ‘Maybe, if I could make this fantasy come true…’ Now, this is the beginning of a reckless, rebellious fight. I pray that her shout and the scent of courageous blood will be conveyed to you.

Lyrics & Translation
散々な今日が　終わって 「大失敗だ」って　笑って
 * -|Kanji=

なぁなぁに　なってしまいそうな そんな一話の中で

冗談みたいな　希望を 願って　祈って　縋って

嘆いていたんじゃ　ほら 変わらない

反駁しよう 酷い嘘で　諄く染まった景色を

もう否定しよう 悔やんでしまうくらいなら

0からでも構わないさ 始めよう

目が開いて　さぁ、さぁ、開戦 間違って　ゲームオーバー

擦りむいて　血を流して もう　前後不覚で　失点　失点

転がって　目を回して ふらついて　朦朧したって

強く　思い浮かべた 一つの言葉

「泣かないで！」 不恰好に　喰らい付いたまま

脳内を満たした 新次元　大胆な第一歩

嗄れそうな想いが　結ぶ力を 胸の奥　宿したまま

出来合いの世界を ご都合の未来を 絶望の今を　睨みつけて

消えそうな　ストーリーを 加速していく　現在を 一層　一層　焦がして

目を合わせたまま

淡々と今日が　終わって 滔々と昨日に　変わって 段々と腐っていく

丁々発止　流れ流れて

散々な今日の死骸を 踏み潰して歩いた 何百回と繰り返してきた

私が私じゃ　なくなって 悲しいお話が　始まる

自分が自分じゃ　なくなって 悲しいお話が　始まる

理想が理想じゃ　なくなって 悲しいお話が　始まる

疑問が疑問じゃ　なくなって 悲しいお話が　始まる

私が私じゃ　なくなって 悲しいお話が　始まる

自分が自分じゃ　なくなって 悲しいお話が　始まる

私が私じゃ　なくなって

わたしがわたしじゃ　なくなって

わたしじゃ　なくなったわたしを

きみにあげる

受け取った今日は 血の匂いがした

もう何回も　明日未満に 立って泣いていた

「悔しいな」なんて言葉　似合わない

空想を叫べ！　今！！

「負けない！」と 声が心臓を打ったなら

さぁ、さぁ、最終決戦　超次元 挑んだ　第一章

爆ぜそうな想いで　染まる明日が 胸の奥　輝いたまま

想像の世界と　空想の未来が 重なった今を　握りしめて

色めいた　ストーリーを 加速していく　現在を 一層　一層　描いて

手を伸ばしたら　きっと　きっと

笑って　目を覚ませるから

Sanzan na kyō ga owatte “Daishippai da” tte waratte
 * -|Romaji=

Nānā ni natte shimaisō na Son'na ichiwa no naka de

Jōdan mitai na kibō o Negatte inotte sugatte

Nageiteitan ja hora Kawaranai

Hanbaku shiyou Hidoi uso de kudoku somatta keshiki o

Mō hitei shiyou Kuyande shimau kurai nara

Zero kara demo kamawanai sa Hajimeyou

Me ga hiraite sa~a, sa~a, kaisen Machigatte gēmu ōbā

Surimuite chi o nagashite Mō zengofukaku de shitten shitten

Korogatte me o mawashite Furatsuite mōrōshitatte

Tsuyoku omoi ukabeta Hitotsu no kotoba

“Nakanaide!” Bukakkō ni kurai tsuita mama

Nōnai o mitashita Shinjigen daitan'na daiippo

Garesō na omoi ga musubu chikara o Mune no oku yadoshita mama

Dekiai no sekai o Gotsugō no mirai o Zetsubō no ima o nirami tsukete

Kiesōna sutōrī o Kasoku shiteiku genzai o Issō issō kogashite

Me o awaseta mama

Tantan to kyō ga owatte Tōtō to kinō ni kawatte Dandan to kusatte iku

Chōchō hasshi nagare nagarete

Sanzan na kyō no shigai o Fumi tsubushite aruita Nan byakkai to kurikaeshite kita

Watashi ga watashi janaku natte Kanashī ohanashi ga hajimaru

Jibun ga jibun janaku natte Kanashī ohanashi ga hajimaru

Risō ga risō janaku natte Kanashī ohanashi ga hajimaru

Gimon ga gimon janaku natte Kanashī ohanashi ga hajimaru

Watashi ga watashi janaku natte Kanashī ohanashi ga hajimaru

Jibun ga jibun janaku natte Kanashī ohanashi ga hajimaru

Watashi ga watashi janaku natte

Watashi ga watashi janaku natte

Watashi janaku natta watashi o

Kimi ni ageru

Uketotta kyō wa Chi no nioi ga shita

Mō nankai mo ashita miman ni Tatte naiteita

“Kuyashī na” nante kotoba niawanai

Kūsō o sakebe! Ima!! “Makenai!” to Koe ga shinzō o utta nara

Sa~a, sa~a, saishū kessen chō jigen Idonda daiisshō

Haze sō na omoi de somaru ashita ga Mune no oku kagayaita mama

Sōzō no sekai to kūsō no mirai ga Kasanatta ima o nigirishimete

Iromeita sutōrī o Kasoku shite iku genzai o Issō issō egaite

Te o nobashitara kitto kitto

Waratte me o samaseru kara (Unofficial Translation)
 * -|English Translation=

My terrible today ends I say “That was a huge failure” and laugh It’s in this single story Where I’m about to start giving in

I wished for, prayed for, clung to Joke-like hope Come on, if you’re gonna mourn Then you won’t change

I try to retort At that cruel joke I try to deny That strongly stained image again If it’s getting to the point where I’ve ended up mourning Then I don’t mind if it’s from nothing Let’s begin

I open my eyes now the war’s begun I mistake it for game over I scratch myself  I draw blood I’ve already lost points for being unconscious I roll  my eyes spin I stagger I feel hazy I’m strongly reminded of something It’s that one word

“Don’t cry!”

As I awkwardly get my teeth into it And take a bold step Into the new dimension filling my brain My thoughts, on the verge of becoming hoarse They’re kept deep in my chest, with the power to bind

The world I’ve met together with, The future full of conveniences, And the present of despair, I glare at them That story, about to disappear, The accelerating present, They scorch more and more As I now meet eyes with them

Today simply comes to an end And swiftly changes into tomorrow I gradually become rotten I hear the sound of clashing, clashing swords

I trample over The remains of my terrible today Which has repeated some hundreds of times now

I’ve become something that isn’t me This sad story begins I’ve become something that isn’t myself This sad story begins My ideals have become something that aren’t ideals This sad story begins My doubts have become something that aren’t doubts This sad story begins

I’ve become something that isn’t me This sad story begins I’ve become something that isn’t myself This sad story begins I’ve become something that isn’t me I’ve become something that isn’t me I give me, who is no longer myself

To you.

The today that I receive Gives off the smell of blood In the insufficient tomorrow I’ve already seen many times now You stood and cried Words like “how annoying” don’t suit you well Shout out your delusion! Now!!

“I won’t lose!” I say If my voice struck your heart, Then come on, for the first chapter, let’s have a final battle I challenged the hyperdimension As the stained tomorrow shines, deep in my chest Within my thoughts, on the verge of bursting open

The world of my imagination and the tomorrow of my fantasies I grip onto them in the present, becoming heavy This colorful story, The accelerating present, I imagine them, more and more When I reach out, I’m sure, definitely,

Once I open my eyes, I’ll laugh.

Trivia

 * It was voted as the #30 Kagerou Project song in the KagePro Song Popularity Ranking 2019.