Shissou Word

Shissou Word (失想ワアド Shissō Wādo) is the fifteenth song of the series and is featured on the album Mekakucity Reload.

Background

 * This is the first song from Mekakucity Reload and was announced on August 15, 2017.

Jin's Comment

 * ‘Can’t you do normal things?’ Aah, I wonder how many times I’ve been asked this. I deem ‘normal’ to be a word with an awfully cruel ring to it sometimes. Even when I’m intending to do my best, I look like I’m slacking off to other people. At times like these, I logically end up suffocated by those words. If only I could become ‘normal’. If only I could do things like ‘normal’. The protagonist of this song is also afraid of ‘normal’ and loses her ‘words’. ‘I want to disappear for good.’ Just what 'words’ are delivered to her as she wishes for this? I want you, who can’t ‘act normal’, to listen to this one song as well.

Information

 * Words / Music / Guitar：Jin
 * Movie：Sidu
 * Guitar：Hideyuki Gushimiyagi
 * Bass：Mashirou Shirakami
 * Drums：Yuumao
 * Strings：Shika Udai Strings
 * Violin: Sachiko Oki / Mikiko Ise / Miho Shimokawa
 * Viola: Shouko Miki
 * VOCALOID Edit：Jin / Sakana
 * Strings Arrange： Jin / Shika Udai Recording
 * Recording Engineer：Nagie

Lyrics & Translation

 * -|Japanese Lyrics=

(Unofficial Translation)
 * -|English Lyrics=

The reflection in the mirror says, “Good morning, it’s another new day” and as usual, the expression on my face is the worst

My awkward smile, my bedhead and my every action the more I look, the more I despise them all It’s unfair, really

There’s a number of things I’d like say, as anyone else might but these thoughts never seem to form words

Keeping my eyes on the ground today too, I struggle as I search for the right words to say “Wow, she can’t even say hello?” “Poor girl”

The plants in the garden were so pretty Envious, I simply watched and comparing myself, I realised just how hopeless I was If only I could just disappear like this…

Strangely enough, in this world we live in even accomplishing the most “mundane” things can be difficult Just thinking about how I was incapable of answering to anything made me feel so stupid, I could only cry

The same dizzying misunderstandings just kept repeating and I would just come to hate them repeatedly A flower bud that began to wither before it could bloom, I thought my future would surely be a wordless one

A strange expression on my face that resembled fear This habit of mine, always running away - Gosh I’m hopeless, so hopeless So embarrassed, I decided to keep my mouth shut I'm really starting to hate it all

There are people out there who laugh, and it’s like their voice is blooming People who exchange words that resemble beautiful flowers Suddenly, the reflection in the mirror says in a begrudging voice, “…I’ll never be like that” “I’m sorry“

It was a picture perfect world out there Envious, I simply watched What should I do so that… so that I won’t ever get in the way? I wish I wasn’t like this but I can’t stop being like this, aah

And as my very own self began to overflow It was terribly pathetic and unbecoming So that no one would ever find out, I could only sit in the corner of my room and cry

But out of the blue, a voice reached out to me and said, “It’s okay, you’re fine just as you are” as if those resounding words were magic, I found myself speechless

Don’t be afraid, put your thoughts into words All those things you’ve bottled up - Say them all, say them all but it came out all wrong, and I could only cry out, “I really am an idiot, aren’t I?“

What I eventually arrived at was “the future” Yes, a world painted in vibrant colours And as I continue to become an adult, I continue to change while still holding onto these unchanging, precious feelings of mine

Strangely enough, in this world we live in Even the act of “remembering” can be difficult So that I won’t lose sight of these words that are so important to me I’m off to pass them on

It’d be perfect if one day, in this world, I was able to laugh happily with someone else and as I’m thinking about things like this, I feel like I might’ve found a purpose for myself in the future

As I fix my bedhead, I decide to head out Today too, as I look straight at the petals of the flower reflected in the mirror “Good morning again,” I respond and begin to make my way

Trivia

 * This song's story was previously told in Kagerou Daze VII -from the darkness-.
 * The characters appear in relation to their number in the Mekakushi Dan.
 * It was voted as the #17 Kagerou Project song in the KagePro Song Popularity Ranking 2019.